In the name of Allah (SWT);
Most Benevolent.

Praises be to Allah SWT,
For his providence and protection,
For bestowing upon me the strength and health,
To fast in this blessed month of Ramadhan.

10 days had passed by..
time flies, really.
perhaps I have been occupied with school and work..
not perhaps...I am occupied with alot lately.
but alhamdulillah, at least my days are productive.

This Ramadhan..
I really miss my late grandfathers.
Both paternal and maternal.
As I always remember performing the taraweeh prayer with them..
whenever my family come to visit them.
Pray to Allah S.W.T to place them amongst the solihin.
Insya Allah.

My mum had not been feeling too well lately...
she has been having pains in her operated regions..
but she is the icon and my inspiration for strength..
despite all the pain and discomfort..
she performs fasting whenever her health permits..
Alhamdulillah for taraweeh jamaah prayers which multipled the oppurtunity for me...
to hug and kiss her and dad at the end of the prayer...
reminding myself that they won't be around forever and to always appreciate them..
for they are my life.
May Allah always watch over them and provide them with health and the best of iman...
Amin.

A few things to do this coming week:

Taraweeh prayers with family
Break Fast with closed friends from Secondary School
Planning and Execution of PERBAYU NTU/NIE Annual General Meeting
Assignments
Break Fast @ Obek Hussein's place
Break Fast @ Nenek's place

Each time after solat,
I would listen to this song...
sang by Allahyarham Ustaz Asri with his team in the nasyeed group Rabbani.
it provides me with such calmness and a clear mind to proceed with whatever I am going to do.

Munajat by Rabbani

 

Tuhan... kubisikkan kerinduan
keinsafan... pengharapan...
Tuhan...kusembahkan pengorbanan
Membuktikan kecintaan

Bisikkanku untukMu
Munajatku mohon restu
Semoga cintaku bukan palsu
Pada desiran penuh syahdu
Gelombang lautan rinduku

Munajatku dalam syahdu
Merindui maghfirahMu
MardhiaMu dalam restu
Harapan tulusnya hatiku

Kurindukan pimpunanMu
KeagunganMu dalam doaku
Kebesaran pada kudratMu
Ia membina rohaniku

Tuhan... kubisikkan kerinduan
Keinsafan... Pengharapan...
Tuhan...kusembahkan pengorbanan
Membuktikan kecintaan

Ujian kepahitan di dalam kehidupan
Padanya ada kamanisan
Ketenangan dan kebahagian
Bayangan syurga idaman

Munajatku dalam syahdu
Merindui maghfirahMu
MardhiaMu dalam restu
Harapan tulusnya hatiku

Kurindukan pimpunanMu
KeagunganMu dalam doaku
Kebesaran pada kudratMu
Ia membina rohaniku

Tuhan... kubisikkan kerinduan
keinsafan... pengharapan...
Tuhan...kusembahkan pengorbanan
Membuktikan kecintaan.

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In the name of God; Most Gracious, Most Merciful.


Second week of school..
had my first 7 hours lecture marathon yesterday...
it wasn't that exhausting, only that some of the topics can be quite dry...

Met with best pal Conrad last Sunday..
as usual it has always been great meeting with him...
everytime he returns from the US during the summer holidays...
being that he is not taking summer school this year...
so i had more time to plan/squeeze an outing with him...
as usual...we met and chit chat at our favourite Teh Tarik Corner...
near Market Street (off Raffles Place MRT).
it's like a ritual...everytime we meet like every 6-8 months...
we will meet at the Teh Tarik @ Market Street..
looking his usual self and lots of thinking as always...
clever people (Cornell Undergrad leh)...heh.
but always welcoming to my silly jokes and talks about religion and life..
Together we circled around Raffles Place to Plaza Singapura in the Magnum Bus.
YES...the Magnum Bus.
It is a bus where u board welcomed by friendly ladies and two Asian musketeers..
the latter flirting with cute Chinese girls who board the bus...
and when u depart the bus at the many designated stops..
you will be given a Magnum Ice-cream...FREE!

and it sets me thinking...
for most part of my life..
i was fed with the idea that in Singapore..
"Where got such thing as free one?"

Actually there are free things...
only that they are different to the National Healthcare System (NHS) in Britain type of institutionalized free giveaways (medical treatment and medical supplies)....
and i am certainly not talking about the government/public provisions.
it comes in the form of providing, without cost, simple pleasures.
usually targeted to the achievement of certain long-term goals of the individual/organization.

Some of examples I can think of would be:

The free shuttle bus services in NTU to Pioneer, JE MRT to IMM, to Chinatown/Little India from Dhoby Ghaut MRT.
Magnum Bus (Free Magnum?!!)
Goodie Bags during Fairs
NDP Tickets and Goodie Bags (restricted to those with luck but free still)
Performances At The Esplanade

These things/events, though not consume or patronize on a daily basis, it provides that hike in the ease of moving around and make someone's day happier or more meaningful. Idris would shout 'PRAISE THE LORD! for free stuff' before we get into a ritualistic dance to appreciate the free services/stuff.

Refocusing to the outing with Conrad.
It was a beautiful day out...
lots of sharing, expanding horizons...
and laughing like hyenas.
Safe return back to the States friend.

This week has been quite hectic...
Working around with organizing the Welcome Tea...
manning the Club Fair booth.
Getting lost for lectures and tutorials.
moving around with convenience food...due to the lack of time to sit and eat.
discretely munching a pau/popiah/anything small in class.
often becoming not so discrete.
tonnes of readings to read (and it's only the 2nd WEEK!!!)

thankfully the lectures were still a little relek jack.
and the profs were entertaining and full of vibes..
especially for the linguistic module...
such passion and fieriness..
i hope if i do turn to teaching later in life..
I could deliver my classes like her...if not better!

Ewah2! is scheduled to be today...
hopefully i don't get cold feet as i am hosting the event..
but it's rather an informal event...
so not too worried...

Ramadhan is on the horizon...
Reducing food intake in the day to train the body to not be hungry...
and insya Allah I'll be ready to welcome Ramadhan.

Ahlan Wa Sahlan ya Ramadhan.
:)

ps, i am in love (deeply) with this song (though it had been played for quite sometime) Delayed receptive syndrome i guess.
for some people, discerning lot, it takes time to appreciate some things

Nana: Lafaz
 

the lyrics and melody are just so moving and tear jerking...
a song to give strength to women whose husbands are unfaithful. Empowerment.

Cukup sudah kesabaran ku ini (Though I had been patient enough with you)..
Walaupun cinta masih bertahta di hatiku ini (Your love still dominates my heart)

Cukup sudah derita ku alami (Though I had enough of your torments)
walaupun engkau kan ku sayangi hingga ke akhir nafas ku (I will love you till my last breath)

Pre chorus:
Inikah tanda setianya dari mu? (But is this faithfulness from you?)
Pada kasih yang ku curahkan pada mu? (For all the affection I showered you with?)

Cukup sudah airmata titis ke bumi ( I had shed enough tears<for you>)
Sedangkan engkau masih mencari (When you are still searching)
Erti cinta abadi (The true meaning of eternal love)

Pre chorus
Pengorbanan yang tak jemu terhadapmu ( My unquestionable sacrifices for you)
Kejujuran dan keikhlasan dari ku ( With honesty and sincerity)

Chorus

Sanggup kau memilih nya dan tinggalkan diriku ( How could you chose her over me?)
Manakah ikrar janji yang kau ladfazkan dulu? (Where are our vows (to love each other) promised once before?)
Puas ku mencari segala kesilapanku ( Fully scrutinize myself for my wrongdoings yet...)
Berdosakah aku menghalangi kebahagiaanmu? (Is it wrong for me to sanction your happiness (with another woman)?

i love this song even if it made me quite sad listening to it.
but powerful vocals still.

Alhamdulillah.
=)